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The Thrill Factor
Most of the people I know say that their trip begins at the "acquiring" phase. Sitting in their cars in dark alleys, waiting for their dealer to drive up to their window, exchanging drugs for cash as they pass each other in the night and driving off without raising suspicion or attracting a "pig tail" (being followed by police) is all part of the rush. When asked if they would still enjoy the trip as much if they didn't have to worry about getting caught, a significant majority have said, "But what would be the point? That's half the fun". By legalising drugs, there would be a significant drop in usage due to the reduced adrenalin rush. It is human nature to want to break the rules. If the rules are changed... I'll let you complete that sentence.
I have never understood the “Thrill Factor” but I know that sadly it exists. My friend has talked allot about the thrill of buying drugs and how that gives him a massive buzz too.
It kind of saddens me, I hate buying drugs, I hate the fact that I am made to feel like a criminal to buy them and that I have to deal with shady people who just want my money. In fact I hardly ever buy my own, I get friends to buy them for me.
I also dislike people that take any drug including Alcohol just to get smashed. I am a bit of a geek much like NJ when it comes to drugs, when I take them I see it as an adventure, I never take them to get “fucked” I like to see their effects on me. I smoked Cannabis last weekend for the first time but I was a bit drunk so although it felt nice I wanted to try it on it’s own. So I did, and it did not work for me, I was waiting for something to hit and nothing came, we smoked a lot as well but I just felt kind of empty, this was not what I look for and although I went into a nice and refreshing sleep I knew this was not for me. Which is fair enough in my opinion, I can see why people like it.
My personal experiences with drugs have been deep, I remember from a young age that I was curious from the off. Till this day the only drugs that I have taken that I feel totally safe on are Speed and MDMA, both physically and mentally.(Although people that have seen my dancing may disagree ha
) Compare that to Alcohol, I forget as I drink it how it makes me feel, the way I act when I am on it (I say the way “I” act on it as I think that is important, to many people blame the substance when they make mistakes but actually there comes a time when you have to take responsibility for your own actions and not blame them on a substance anymore.) and how even when I am drinking it I can feel my body getting hot and the redness of my skin increase.
The hardest thing with Alcohol is I have tried to give up, I really have, I have never had a drinking problem as such, at least not one that anyone else would recognize as one. However, inside there was an internal battle, I would feel depressed for days after drinking, I would regret nearly everything I said or did on it. I never solved a problem in my life with drink it is poison not only for my body but for my mind too. It took me a long time to see this, I have been drinking since the age of 12, I know now that it’s no good for me and my attitude has changed completely, I still drink and I still get drunk but I treat it with a lot more respect but it took me a long time to get to that point. I went into it blind being told that it was bad but watching everyone else doing it anyway.
With MDMA & Speed, I was also not told anything about it, but I had the sense to teach myself, I read about it, I knew what to watch out for, I learnt about dosage and I knew how to deal with negative effects, I knew the risks and I was able to take steps to reduce them. All of this was learnt online from other users and the various official sources that are out there. I have solved problems on MDMA, genuinely when I was in Germany at Timewarp I made a pact there and then with my friend that I was not going to let my ex ruin my mood anymore and I would spend my year doing the things that I really love doing and the main thing being going to as many music events as possible, I took that away with me and I made it happen, I would never have seen that on Alcohol, it just does not do that for me, it makes me irrational and hazes my head.
So, on a personal basis which I try to avoid when talking about the legalization of drugs how can the government tell me that one is fine and I can do it as much as I like even though I know it has really negative impacts upon me but the other one which works for me I am not allowed to do and I have to be forced to deal with people that I would rather not. Who are they protecting? I am also very lucky that I know when something is not good for me at all, Cocaine being a good example, that was only going one way for me and I managed to nip it in the bud and have not touched it since. Sadly, not everyone is like this but does prohibition protect them?
Once you have made a decision to do a drug you will do it regardless of it’s legality, it is basically legal now anyway in the sense if I wanted ketamine (Oh this is by far the biggest problem amongst people my age at the moment.) I could go and find it with ease. You made a good point earlier Remco, about how it is not cool to do Cannabis, just normal, loads of people do it and the fun factor has been taken away as has I expect the stigma. By saying something is wrong you immediately isolate the person and make them feel almost dirty, sometimes I hate the word “Clean time” as it suggests that they are dirty when using. Indeed, the changes in Portugal have shown that making things more open makes people more willing to ask for help. Also NJ touched upon this.
Anyway, I sort of went on a bit there about my personal experience……
Education has always been at the core of my point on drug use, we need to be open from a young age as telling people not to do something does not work. I consider myself lucky that I decided to educate myself; it does not mean I will never make a mistake but at least I know both sides of the coin.
NJ, totally agree with that viewpoint, I love getting into a debate with someone in a pub slagging off the “junkies” while drinking their 7th pint of their extended weekend which has run from Thursday to Monday. Even more fun is pointing out that Alcohol and Nicotine kills more people than any of the illegal drugs….
“No that’s because more people take them”
Erm, actually this is done per a number of users, of course they don’t accept it and why should they, their bubble is their comfort and people don’t like to think that they are the same as people that they look down upon.
Finally I came across this article today:
http://www.independent.co.uk/news/world/europe/krokodil-the-drug-that-eats-junkies-2300787.htmlFirst things first, that use of the word “Junkie” is awful from a national newspaper, it really angers me when I see that.
Anyway, if you read the article you will learn that “krokodil” is Desomorphine, which in pure form is a fairly safe drug as in it’s used in several countries.
Read on and you will see that price of Heroin has rocketed in Russia, the reason for this is because they have tight border controls that has stopped the drug getting through.
As a result, the normal punters can’t afford the price of Heroin, so they have to turn to something else to get a fix. This stuff after I investigated is made from basically chemicals and is not similar to Desomorphine at all. Again I ask, who and what is Prohibition protecting? Russia has one of the hardest lines on drug users, they also have one of the worst death rates for drug related deaths, usually things that can be avoided such as DVT’s and Septicaemia.
That was a long post, I hope it makes sense, I will probably use it as a ref for when I get into these sorts of discussions.